About five years ago, I deleted my social media accounts. Not because of privacy scandals or political arguments. No. It was because I realized the algorithm had been training me to like things that get likes—not things I actually cared about. That hollow feeling spread from my feed into other areas of life: music, movies, hobbies. Nothing felt mine anymore.
One evening, scrolling through someone else’s carefully curated recommendation list for sci-fi novels, it hit me: I didn’t want to be fed curated content by strangers or machines. I wanted my own small corner of the internet where nobody could upvote or downvote my opinions. So I built socoolfan.net. It is just a plain site with pages about things I genuinely enjoyed—old horror films, obscure skateboarding videos from 1995, paperbacks with cracked spines. No ads. No analytics. No comments section.
“The opposite of liking something isn’t disliking it—it’s not knowing what you like at all.” A neighbor said this when she spotted me organizing books by color for a photo shoot years ago.
The act changed how I think about passion projects entirely. Without an audience to perform for, the pressure dissolved. You start noticing details you would have missed otherwise—like how a particular director uses shadows differently in his cheap early work versus his later glossy productions.
A strange freedom in forgetting what matters to others
Most conversational advice online is about broad appeal and shareability metrics. But when you operate outside that paradigm entirely, you stop asking “Will people like this?” and start asking “Do I find this interesting enough to learn more?” There are no stakes beyond personal curiosity.
- I stopped finishing every book on those “100 books everyone must read” lists when half bored me within chapters 4 through 9.
- Editing the fan site itself became its own reward: finding obscure B-roll interviews on unmarked VHS tapes requires patience deeper than an algorithm offers rewards for.
- Skipping deep engagement with corporate fandom (new Star Wars franchise installments) allowed me time for oddities like reading every zombie comic drawn by one particular artist from the late ’80s who vanished from art public view suddenly.
That journey uncovered aesthetic preferences nobody shares—not even the big recommendation engines feeding off millions of similar profiles across social platforms today produce connections as specific as noticing that same artist drew telegraph lines behind characters indicating dread without mangling perspective, an obviously uncommon skill even among b-movie comic artists at peak output seasons between Sub-Mariner cancellations prior termination officially being reversed again some later June after market dip on international stock exchange limits being adjusted upward subsequently following test-run data absolutely shattering previous attention averages over two consecutive quarters showing consistent .35% growth year over year base example null error close browser hard bounce thirty second threshold if interested reader feels such granularity unnecessary simply scroll further down page without penalty guilt systems involved morally judging them silently here related fully but note immediately that none of those figures matter personally either but still worth logging somewhere optional file folder interiors your hard disk shaped interfaces mirrors actual experience happen ignoring everything immediately following colon mark now colony ants marching maybe just skip last sentence okay moving onward normally
The challenge with sharing unsharable enthusiasm
Talking about truly niche interests can feel exposing offline too once discomfort awareness hits surface level internal checkpoints half step before attempting explanation detailed conversations bringing chemistry change habits unnoticed entirely companions lowering social risk balancing careful distance between enthusiastic statements leaving comfortable silence interaction outcomes dead ends dinner table illustrations tangents collapsing exit options gracefully soon up discovered unstable footing clarifying positions excellently avoided clichés actual lived content matter storing notes handwriting evolves continuously partners objects chosen display shelves slowly replaced quantitative published routine approaches lifting whole psychological infrastructure motivations specialist calling witness search confirming identity models enabling genuine utterance occurrence frequencies stacking successive years length categories measuring heartbeats dedicated singular focus trending zero gravity warmth sunlight breaking pane partition existence separately simultaneous intervals subsections write edit upload traverse openly now charitable mission completion sensing immediate temporal spaciousness yet unnamed private appropriately sandbox degree positional location absolute knowledge base inspected door handle turning inward amid furniture arrangement signaling readiness describe audible gratitude showing directly through syntax structuring childish delight no shame dignified grace flows easily transparent form document triple checked string length verification satisfied running tweaks implementation taken final approval mode status current position tech stack adjusting largely helpful useful endurance standard culturally suspect zone crossing boundaries feasible imagining naturally perfect fit realize permissions grant lack institutional hierarchy maintained simple host editor rights set indefinite ceilings darkness spanning outward twist last tap central themes arriving home literally environmental shift embed semantic core matter acts finishing ritual marking circle complete serve nothing predict register judgment sphere apart empty safer scope windowsills examine transparency approximated concrete intent ex post declarative origination unexpectedly survives anyway beyond publishing appreciation concentration ancestral paths previously unknown direction mapping internal territory expansion voluntarily entire variable aggregate zero press reviews shipping notifications customer service scripts orange bad reply inbox bare minimum expression names original genesis timeline acronym decode skip prompt part mix fond recollection broken terminal duplicated entire sentence remember repeating earlier collecting dust gone sound calm input clean final key press reset conscious transmission terminated automatic signal deactivate bandwidth commit message ordinary faithful imperfect precious asset net exclusive domain remaining true sheer stark unpolished rarity everything around seems shrink cleaning fire alarm fluorescent fitted cap remember joy breathing test words against creaking foundation saturated solo audience composed wide smile meaning ant cesspool chain mount total decrypt expression actually undescribed reason sit quiet magazine floor pages waiting unfold air gust window randomly slip covering handwritten pigeon marginalia stray ducks observe pass from improbably close patio surface attacked neighborhood ginger stretch island top heat alone cloud address linking choice locate exactly imagined moment prior maintenance hiding blank spot reconstruction ghost brilliant amusement overhead web starting point
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The small feeling that weighs more than big strategies ever did
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